Learning What Calms My Soul + Back to Work

Time for Adventure

The week before school started I was able to get out of my apartment from taking care of dogs, twice, and do something.  I can't tell you how much it cleared my mind and took stress off of me.  

Monday, my mom and I took the day and went to Wrightsville Beach, which I believe I briefly told you about in the last blog post I wrote.  I hit the gym that morning and then took care of some dogs and when I got home mom was hard at work on making out eclipse cereal boxes.  She got cereal that I liked so it wouldn't go to waste.  We didn't end up leaving until around 9 and by the time we got there we were hungry so we set up on the beach and then headed up to Oceania, a restaurant on the pier, for some lunch.  I love crab cakes and and usually a sucker for them at a seafood restaurant so that's what I got.  I still tried to stick to my nutrition plan while I was there.

Once lunch was over we hung out on the beach and I worked on my tan more than mom did.  It didn't take her long to go hang out by the pier in the shade.  I like how dark my skin can get in the summer.  And my tan never completely fades during the long months until

summer starts again.  The eclipse was suppose to come by around 245 so when it started to get closer to that time mom and I tried to use the cereal boxes but it didn't work and you have to turn away from the sun to use them...that's no fun.  We wanted to look at the sun to see the eclipse.  Lucky for us plenty of people had glasses and nice enough to pass them back and forth to us.

Friday, I did have one drop in schedule for the day (a cat) that I took care of in the morning and then I had the rest of the day free.  I texted my friend Krystal to see if she wanted to have a much needed girls day and get out and get some much needed fresh air.  There's something about getting outside and away from home that just clears your head and being around water.  We made reservations at Cape Fear River Adventures in Lillington to go paddle boarding for 2 hours.  The weather was going to be gorgeous that day and the river ended up being pretty quiet.  We wish we would have spent the whole day.  It's one of my goals to live close to a place one day where I can go paddle boarding if I'd like to.  Once we were put on the water we were told to go to the left, up stream, that way when we headed back we would be down river.  It didn't take us long to paddle what the lady told us would be one mile so we went a little first and enjoyed the sun, trees, river view, and the water.  We were able to talk about a lot of stuff...life, guys, school, work, what was important to us.  And how we realize that the experiences we have, going and doing, is a lot more important to us than the things that we own.

The water felt great too and at some parts in the river you could actually see the bottom and stand up but we didn't jump off out boards there.  Only when we couldn't touch the bottom did we jump off our boards.  It felt great to do that a couple days before school started.  We'll definitely head out and do it again but as an all day trip!

Life goals:  travel more

I'm already looking at a trip to Australia next Dec.  (tickets are almost $3000...got to save up for that)

Australia is one of the countries on my bucket list to travel and has been for years.  (the others Italy and Greece, mainly.  I wouldn't complain about a trip to a tropical island with clear blue green waters either)

Having things isn't going to make me happy and spending money on them isn't going to allow me to travel.  I plan on budgeting how much I spend each month on personal things that I want to treat myself to and other than that I'm don't plan on spending any money.  O but I will be buying a map to put pins in of all the places I've traveled.  World, here I come!

Back At It

School started back two weeks ago and the first week was a little rough.  A parent complained that I said something to her daughter that she wears too much makeup (she does) but I'm not going to tell the kid that.  She's in middle school for crying out loud.  I spent most of my time in the office that first week helping with paper work so when I was finally put in a classroom on Friday it was funny to finally see some of kids faces whose names I had seen on papers repeatedly all week.  

We had one week of school and then a day off because of Labor Day, so that wasn't too bad.  I didn't do anything because I had a two different dog families to take care of.  So a low key weekend for me.  

Nothing too exciting so far this year but it's only just getting started.

Bad Dreams

Last week I had the same bad dream two nights in a row and a bad feeling that Monday as well.  I can't remember the last time I've had the same bad dream, but it's like the bad dream two nights in a row was a continuance of the night before.  There has to be a meaning behind it.

Some friends and family, and myself, all decided to take a trip together in Europe.  We were camping in someplace as well that wasn't in Europe.  One of my friend's parents tagged along with us and I'm not sure why.  But from about the middle of the trip he was trying to kill each of us, even his own daughter.  We were running and hiding from him in the woods and in places in very old tall run down business buildings.  Ones that has things destroyed inside, lights falling from the ceiling, windows broken, desks pushed all over the place.  Almost made me think of as if it were haunted.  We would be running and all of a sudden he would pop up out of nowhere in front of us.  And of course we either stand and stare in terror or scream and run.  I don't remember exactly anyone who was there, other than family, except in the last part before I woke up Fidget was there.  At the very end of the dream I jumped through a building window, not out into the open air, just a broken one inside the building.  Anytime we would see her dad we all kind of scattered and ran in opposite directions only to find each other again later.  I'm honestly a little weirded out by the dream.

So the bad feeling I had that Monday had to do with Fidget.  I just had a feeling that whenever I heard from him next he was going to give me some bad news, something I didn't want to hear, something that was going to hurt me.  So the bad thing I did was I told him I had a bad feeling about something with him and left it at that.  I didn't bother explaining that to him until about 2 weeks later.  Horrible of me to do.  Ever since I've had that feeling I've backed off from him because I don't want him to tell me something I don't want to hear that will hurt.  But let's be honest, he still crossed my mind every day.  The last thing I want to do is stress him out and I'm always afraid that I will.  Just wish I could hear from him.


But on a brighter note, I'm looking forward to this weekend....I'm going apple picking.   I'm in the mood to make some apple pies for some reason!