Jeez, it's almost been a month since I last wrote. I honestly wish I could say I was sitting outside by the pond write now typing this blog, but it's so bloody hot outside. Being outside gives my head clarity. Now if only I was out of town enjoying the breeze. I think that might be the only thing I enjoy about it changing to fall is a little bit of the weather cool off at night. (O and the fact that it won't be so damn hot in the gym in the mornings...there's no AC.) Enjoy the air outside then. But I enjoy the summer months, just not the heat at night. Summer for me means time to relax and a bomb sun tan. I haven't honestly had a lot to write about.
July felt like it flew by, it's crazy. And August feels like it's doing the same. Part of me is happy about that because I have some things to look forward to in September, like Barbells and Brews at the end of the month and classes start. But the faster August rolls by the closer I am to work starting again. I've been so busy this summer I don't even feel like I've gotten a lot of time to even vacation. And that feels weird. But it's good to be busy!
Training & Nutrition
After the Appalachian Open I threw myself into my programming making that my main focus especially since I was still feeling good from my PR clean and jerk. Little did I know that my coach's programming would take it's toll (high volume) and snatches would start feeling slow as shit. Each week is was sets to failure and the sets increased every week! Holy moly, and of course my goal was to push myself even harder each week and to make myself sore. Mission accomplished on that end...quads, glutes, hamstrings, and upper body!
This past Saturday I was so busy with pups that I wasn't able to workout so I just made up for it on Sunday. It was a rough week in the gym. Monday with my last day of goblet squats and it being my last movement, sets of 5, I almost said screw it and went home. The gym has started to become super crowded in the mornings before PT hours which was part of the reason I was just ready to call it quits and go home. I mean I have a kettlebell at home that I could use that is the same weight as the one in the gym I use. I sucked it up and did it anyway. With a little bit of yelling at myself in my head.
Sunday, I talked to my coach and he added plyometrics into my programming. I was really looking forward to my deload week, taking it nice and easy and letting my body recuperate. But back to the grind I went on Monday and today felt better than yesterday. My body was definitely exhausted yesterday. I had no desire to do anything at all after leaving the gym. I have actually enjoyed doing the box jumps. I'm just glad those suckers at the gym are soft cause I definitely didn't pick up my feet on one of them at all and landed completely on my shins!
I am worried about my nutrition and have asked my coach to take a look at what I'm eating and if I'm doing anything wrong because I just feel like I am. I was down to 54.9 kilos when he first started me on my new nutrition plan for Barbells and Brews at the end of September. We are trying to get me down to 53kg class for this meet. Since being on the base for the new plan I've jumped up to 56.7kg and am concerned that I won't make it down to 53kg. I mean almost 4 kilos in about a month and a half. My brain is freaking out and trying to trust the process but it's hard right now. I can't explain how much my mind is freaking out right now! I start cut 1 on Sunday and I'm sending my nutrition to my coach most likely Saturday so hopefully that will help and I can not freak out so much.
What Has This World Come To?
I never type things like this because part of me feels it's better to keep my opinion out of this political mess and all the craziness of the world. Anytime someone posts something political these days it ends in more fighting and people turning against each other.
North Korea is claiming they are going to launch a missile at Guam, and honestly I'm worried cbeause I've got a friend deployed there. As ready as soldiers are to go to war I always pray that it doesn't happen. What happened to North Korea that made them believe that the USA was responsible for all their problems and we're the enemy? What makes people not just want to get together and talk and make compromises or even explain why the feel a certain way? Yes, communication is hard between people when you feel resentment, hurt, etc. It's hard to change our points of view on things and I know I don't know everything going on with the situation on NK and I'm not even going to pretend like I do. But a country hating another so much just baffles me. It honestly hurts to think that people can think this way. But I know that if NK does decide to launch a missile at Guam the boys are ready to go after'em.
The incident in Charlottesville where people were ran down by a car trying to stand against racism is just sad. What does it matter what color someone's skin is or what they believe? People with Nazi beliefs still exist and that honestly baffles me! People are deemed superior by the traits they carry. And maybe I'm just naive. I'm not going to pretend to know the whole situation because I obviously don't. But I do need to stay more up to date on what's going on in this world, or it will give me more anxiety (haha). I figured all that was gone. After hearing what happened to so many people during the Holocaust how can people still believe in things like this. I know racism still existed towards blacks but towards peoples beliefs and lifestyle? And then the incident in Charlottesville led to a statue being pulled down in Durham of a confederate soldier and stomped on. And then Maryland started moving several of it's statues out overnight and now more places are removing Confederate statues. I understand that it does have some negative memories for many people, but that is apart of our history. We remember our past and see how those events have brought us to the great place (inspite of all that is happening today) we are today.
We have so many more freedoms, choices, and luxuries than many other countries do. Where in the world did people get the idea that they could act like idiots in this world? I'm truly am shocked and broken hearted by how people are acting these days. It's like they were raised in a barn yard and can act however they what. I honestly am not sure what to say about how people are acting these days. And I understand there is a lot of hate for Trump. How he reacted to what happened in Charlottesville is shocking to people. He didn't really seemed that concerned with what happened. And honestly I feel like he's more concerned with his popularity and posted tweets on twitter than he seems to be with what is going on. Focus more on what your country needs to have done and the issues that are going on, like people being run down for their views. The big issues between countries is just as important as the big issues that happen in this country.
But when talking to a friend last night he was reminding me that towards the time when Christ returns people will turn against each other for race and religion. We as Christians will see what they are doing and how they are acting is wrong, but they will think it's the right thing to do. Now am I saying that time is coming? No, but it is a scary thought to think about.
So What Else is Going On?
Work (school) starts again in, o jeez, about a week. And I start school at the beginning of Sept. Only for a month and a half though. And then maybe onto the class that follows that. This would mean I would be taking 3 classes back to back in a full semester....hmmmm. But that's nothing compared to when I was in college taking 4-5 classes per semester. So why am I complaining about taking 3 classes back to back? I guess I'm just nervous since I'm taking sign language and last time I kind of freaked out on myself. Just deep breaths and I'll be okay.
My savage swim bathing suit finally came after trying to figure out what patterns and solids I wanted to mix and match. I finally made a decision on Independence Day when they were offering 20% off haha. Hey, I saved about $40 on a $200 bathing suit. I know, I know...$200 for a bathing suit is a bit ridiculous but I love these things. And they get to express some of me that some people might not get to see. O and I can basically get 4 bathing suits out of just one.
Mom and I went to the beach on Monday (8/21), and basically spent the entire day there. I had to run around a finish taking care of some animals first that morning after hitting the gym. And while I was gone, because neither one of us really cared bout the eclipse of 2017 at first we didn't bother to get glasses, Mom ran and got some cereal boxes to try and make us a way to see the eclipse, even though it would be a reflection. We got there and got lunch first on the pier at Oceania. I'm a crab cake lover! And then back down to lay out in the sun. This girl's got to work on her tan haha. I did stop one of the paramedics because I got bit by something and it has made my hand swell up. Not sure exactly what it was that bit me. Just hoping it gets better soon! As it started getting closer to time for the eclipse we started trying to use our boxes...no luck though. They didn't work. But people were nice enough to let us look through their glasses every so often. You could feel a change in the weather and the sky got gloomy but no complete darkness like some other places had. It was definitely cool to experience. We stayed on the beach until 6pm and then headed home. I actually feel asleep on the beach! Just glad I didn't get burnt. That would not have felt good. But back to the beach on Friday for some girl time with Krystal.
Fidget...
I don't get to talk to him a lot and I know he's busy with work. And I knew that work would keep him busy. But it does suck not being able to talk to him. I am ready for him to come home though. As far as I know he is doing well while out of town for work. I pray for him practically every day; far more than I pray for myself. Part of me hopes he surprises me when he gets back.
