March 30, 2016

16.5 is...The End of the Open + Easter

Mid thrusters.  I always seem to make that same face when doing
any front movement.  Breathe much?
So my 2016 CrossFit Open Season is finally over.  And I'm happy to write that it finished on a good note!  As many of you have read this really hasn't been a great year for me with the Open.  I have been disappointed in my performances this past year and some of that was out of my control with trying to save myself from injury.  But it's nice to write a post again where I am all smiles.  Final workout was announced last Thursday (March 24th) in California at a placed they call "The Ranch."  They usually do a big event for the final open announcement.  This year besides it being at the first site of the CrossFit Games before it moved out to Carson, CA it also featured three games competitors: Rich Froning, Ben Smith, and Matt Frascure.  All big wigs in the CrossFit world.  What I don't think any of us expected was to see a movement repeated this year.  We usually use all the major movements in CrossFit and in recent years some new ones.  So this year when Castro announced that 16.5 was 14.5 I was racking my brain trying to figure out which one that workout was.  How in the world was I suppose to remember a workout from 2 years ago?!
Well once I was reminded of what 14.5 was I remember that day very well.  It was my very first being introduced to CrossFit Guild and a gym that I would later start coaching at.  I was there with some good CrossFit friends and former boss, Randy, with is wife and family friend Keith.  I remember breaking up thrusters A LOT and burpees being my saving grace because I can move through those at a steady pace and not really have to rest.  Well flash forward 2 years later and here we are again...


16.5 is 14.5
Well, so what is 16.5 and what was 14.5? 
This was the shocker in 2014 with a workout that was For Time.  This had never happened before.  Usually Castro puts a cap on the workouts because it would be a nightmare for headquarters to try and get everyone's scores right and not to mention the videos they might have to watch.

So without further ado 16.5 is


16.5
thrusters 95/65
OTB burpees 
(OTB = over the bar)

Mid burpee during 16.5
Thank you Vibrant Photography/Christina Roth for the photos!

Although I was nervous about doing this one again because of my performance this year I was happy about one thing... I would be home with my family at CrossFit Northlake to complete this last and final workout.  I found Northlake back in 2012 right before I moved at the beginning of 2013.  I was talking to the owner Jason about being a coach there.  It would have been my first opportunity to start coaching, and to think where I would be now if I would have stayed there and not have moved.  But they welcome me with open arms every time I come home for a visit and always include me in their events even though I'm 2.5 hours away.  I'm apart of their family and feel truly blessed that I am.  My friend Fidget knew I would do well and had faith in me that I would.  He was encouraging saying that I had gotten stronger over the past year.  And he may be right but my strength numbers now aren't showing it haha.  He had more faith in me than I did in myself when I told him of the workout!  Kind of sad huh.
I got to Northlake 30min early so that I could warm up which involved a lot of rolling out my quads because it was my smart idea to run sprints on the track the day before hand.  My legs being sore was the only reason I was regretting running sprints and then having to do a total of 84 thrusters and burpees that evening.  Everything started at 6pm and I was a little nervous because I told them I would help judge.  So that didn't leave me a lot of time to warm up on thrusters.  I helped judge the first heat and we were placing the time cap, even though there wasn't really one, at 30 minutes.  After judging the first heat I got FIVE minutes to warm up and take a pee break. I got my bar set up and already have my oly shoes and wrist wraps on.  My judge was Kelly and we discussed how I wanted my reps called out and she encourages me along the way to just keep me moving.  The only thing I really asked of Kelly was to not let me know what time was on the clock, well unless it was getting close to my old time of 18 minutes and some change, then she needed to tell me to move my ass!
That daunting clock is placed high up on the main wall of the gym and I intentionally faced away from it.  I didn't want to know what time was going to be on the clock throughout because I would mentally mess myself up.  So face the rig I did, and keep my eyes down almost the entire time.  Funny thing is is when I concentrate, even when I was in gymnastics, I would look down and not straight ahead.  It never messes me up, it's just how I stay focused.  I had already planned out how I was going to break up my sets.  If I had to break up my set of 21 I would into 15 & 6 and I was trying to decide if it was a good idea to go unbroken on it.  Well at least my legs would have a break during the burpees! :)
So at 3...2...1....go
21 thrusters at 65#, unbroken.  Now when it comes to the burpees I told you I could just move through those, definitely not fly through them though.  I don't rest on the ground because I'm just flopping my body.  As soon as my chest hits the floor I'm pushing myself back up and jumping over the back.  I angled my body a little bit as my goal was to just pop my feet up and they would be right at the bar.  I usually end up in a straddle stretch position so I don't have to bend my legs into a squat position.  I was trying to save those suckers as much as I could.  Well my method for my burpee didn't exactly work but that's okay.  I saved myself some time by turning as I was jumping over the bar.  Another thing I noticed also was that other athletes, mind you this was not while I was doing my workout that I was paying attention to them just when judging, would walk back around their bar to the direction they had started there thrusters if they ended their burpees on the opposite side.  If that makes since at all.  (If they started my thrusters facing the clock and finished their burpees facing the clock, they would then walk back around to start their thrusters so they were facing the clock).  I did't bother walking back around the bar.  After my last burpee in the set I just grabbed the bar and started my thrusters again, facing the clock or not.  The less I faced the clock the happier I was. 

I broke down the rest of my thruster sets like this:
I'm glad Kelly kept track of my times for each set!  This was
awesome to see!


set of 18 = 11-7
set of 15 = 10-5
set of 12 = 9/3
set of 9 = 5/4
set of 6 = 6
set of 3 = 3

I only looked at the clock I want to say on my set of 6.  I wanted to see where I was at because I was almost done.  My legs weren't killing me like I thought they would have been but they were definitely in pain.  I remember how hard it was to get through thrusters that first year.  I would rest my bar overhead instead of in the front rack position.  It's easier for me that way because my triceps get tired holding it in front rack and it's more fluid to hold it up top and then go straight back into a thruster when I'm done resting.








So many of my friends have asked me already what my time was for 16.5 and I've been keeping it a secret until now.

2014 - 18:57
2016 - 


14:58
Difference = 3:59
*Dang that 4min difference.  Only 1 second off!
The funny part is is that I have kept all my score slips from 2014-2016 and for some odd reason the only one I can't find is 14.5 of 2014!  

http://games.crossfit.com/leaderboard
Click on the link and change the year of the leaderboard to 2014.  Then type in the Athlete Name: Tiffany Black and I'm about halfway down the page (place 15403)


I came in with a bang and definitely went out with one and a great PR!
Later I judged a girl named Heather and he has been to the Regionals before on a team with CrossFit Northlake and did almost the whole thing unbroken...LIFE GOALS!!

Easter & Miracles From Heaven
A lot of my family's birthday fall around Easter time.  My Mom's is toward the end of March (22nd) and mine is two weeks after hers (April 5th).  My sister-in-laws is on the 17th and my grandma on my Dad's side is the 20th, and not to mention the 4 cousins we have born in April and now with my nephew who is soon to arrive (due date April 25th), it makes for one heck of a month. 
3 generations, moms and daughters
Of course be coming home for the weekend was more about Easter than it was about celebrating birthdays.  Mom took us (myself, Addi - my niece, and Amber - sister-in-law) out to breakfast at Cracker Barrel.  You can't beat that place unless you're in Melbourne, FL and go to Simply Delicious Cafe & Bakery in Cocoa Beach.  After mom wanted to take us over to Kay's and get us a new piece of jewelry.  She wasn't specific on what we had to get but thought I might want a new cross necklace.  She got mine a couple years back for me for Christmas and Addi helped pick it between two different necklaces. 

And so it holds a special meaning to me because she did that and I don't think she was even one year old yet.  I've had trouble with this necklace because the diamond has fallen out once and the chain I want to say has broken about 4 times now!  But I just couldn't bring myself to part with it.  And the one necklace I did see that I liked I didn't even want to know the price of it.  I didn't want my mom spending that much money on me.  I've never been a big jewelry person either.  I've worn this necklace everyday since I've gotten it, and it's even hard for me to take it off to wear another necklace for a different occasion.  This necklace has a lot of meaning behind it besides my niece.  Besides that we headed into Belk where Addi found a glasses and I don't mean sunglasses and started passing them out for everyone to try on.  We all ended up in glasses and could help but take a family photo, 3 generations and all moms and daughters.  But let me tell you it was hard to see Amber holding the phone to take a picture because of how blurry those suckers made everything!

Frosting nose

We had dinner that night at my brother's house.  My mom had gotten a ton of meat from Shelby the day before - pork chops, bacon wrapped filets, and chicken legs.  My grandma makes the best cinnamon apples and broccoli slaw/salad so we always ask her to make it when we have family events.  I'm not going to lie that's what I wanted to make but it was taken care of for me.  My sister-in-law, Amber, got a cake from Public that was topped with fruit and had pureed/creamed fruit in between the 3 layers.  It want to say the cake was a angel food or pound cake.  And my brother makes some AMAZING garlic bread on the grill.  It's always a crowd pleaser, but most of our meal was.  My niece is always the life of the party, only 2 years old, and makes sure everyone has what they need.  Like my grandpa didn't have juice (water).  
Addi and I played with the whipped cream frosting from the cake.  I won't lie I took a fork and stuck some on her nose and then she just had to do the same to Aunt Tiff.  She was laughing so hard.

Sunday morning my mom and I joined my Grandma at church.  It's something that I always do, but something I always try and do with my grandma.  It's what she remembers the most.  After mom and I got back from church we went to see Miracles From Heaven.  I won't lie I was a little hesitant about the movie because I saw Heaven is Real and wasn't a big fan of it.  I do love that Christian movies are becoming more main stream in the theaters these days though.  If you decide to go see this movie do yourself a favor and take a box of tissues.  This movie really hits home with what the mom is feeling with losing her faith.  God tests all of us just like he did the mother in this situation with her daughter's illness.  Why would God put someone through so much pain.  I've been through something similar in the feelings.  I had one day where I said I was done having faith in God.  I was tired of always having what felt like endless problems that never seemed to go away and looked as if they would never get better, and it was recent too.  How uncomfortable this little girl feels in her own body and how she wonders why God is doing this to her and why he hasn't healed her.  The questions of why God does things to us and puts us through certain situations are forever endless.  It is through those times that God tests our faith.  The testing of our faith brings out perseverance.


"Not only so, but we also glory in our suffering, because we know that suffering
brings perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope"
Romans 5:3-4

It really hit home on that front, and how God does perform miracles or even have the right timing for things in our lives. Not only did it hit home in this way but also of how much I really want to reach people who don't believe in Christ and those who believe but whose faith is not strong.  I want everyone to be able to feel the joy and hope that God provides me!  I love sharing my stories of struggle with people and how I got through them even though at times I did lose my faith.  And I want these stories that I tell no matter how personal and hesitant I am to share them can change someones life.  That their life was changed just by hearing my story.  I want to be able to change so many peoples lives and inspire others.  I just wish if I have already done those things that I knew.  To be a guide and mentor when someone is struggling with their faith in God.    
Next week should be a fun week...I'm going to look a little different and it's spring break for the kiddos!



       ~God Bless
"Training strength and endurance mentally, physically, and spiritually."

March 24, 2016

Swimming Need to Know + SPED

I'm not even sure where to start this blog because there's been so much going on in my head this week and some things I have figured out about myself.  This one is a little long!

Let me first start by saying how glad I am that 16.4 is over and that we only have 1 more open workout to go until the Open season for CrossFit is done.  I honestly have expected more out of myself than my performance this year.  I know some things have affected me when it comes to my training mentally and only working out by myself.  I also realized from 16.4 how right side dominate I am because my right hamstring is still hurting from all those deadlifts and I had deadlifts for strength work today with 3+ reps at 90% this morning.  Some of you might not know what that means but I'll try to explain it quickly...
Every so often for strength work we test for what we call a !RM (1rep max), the heaviest weight you can lift 1 time.  And for me that is 1 time with PROPER from.  There are those people who will lift it no matter how bad their form gets just to say that they can lift a certain about of weight.  If I feel my back start to round out I will drop they bar, it is not worth the possible risk of an injury to me and then not being able to workout for awhile, however long that maybe.  So from that 1RM number (my deadlift, dL, is 235lb) you take 90% and I have to lift that for at least 3 reps and if I can get more, then more.  I hit 6 this morning.

With my body was still reeling from 16.4 and I'm wondering if I did something to my hamstring during deadlifts Wednesday was suppose to be a nice break from all the lifting and just swim.  I was determined because I knew I would have anxiety to get in and kill 3000m in the pool!  Just keep to myself and knock it out.  Some of you might remember from previous posts that I usually push myself pretty hard in the pool so if you can actually consider it an active recovery day I'm not quite sure.
I think I was one of the first people in the pool and I even beat the training guys out there and that's pretty unusual.  So my workout was as follows and I try and set a specific goal for every time I go in a swim whether it is distance and what I'm specifically working on that day, whether it be breath control, endurance, or speed.

And I apologize in advance because I have a feeling I'm going to come across as a bitch, which I'm not most of the time.  And I want to apologize to the "slacking workout partner" for being too harsh/critical when all he was trying to do was help me out for 16.4, which I'm not going to refer to him as "Fidget" anytime I refer to him in here.  Who knows, maybe one day I'll tell you his name.  So lets just say this is the real perspective from people who have swam most of their life, and what we think when we're on a mission.

But there are a couple things I have figured out about swimming for me.  Besides having complete anxiety on Wednesday at the pool, I'm a swim snob. 

1.  You'll probably slow me down.
And what I mean by swim snob is I hate sharing my lane with more than one other person.  If it's all fast swimmers I probably wouldn't mind sharing and having to circle swim but having to share with people who have no idea what they are doing and not fast at swimming is pretty much a pain in the butt! 

The pool was quiet for about 45min which is pretty unusual for a Wednesday morning.  Some guys come in and do PT with their unit and that's not too bad and then you have your regulars.  But holy crap, 0645 rolled around and there were a ton of people standing on the pool deck waiting to get into a lane. 

I think that's where the annoyance starts. 

2. You're not going to get offered a lane!
If you want to swim and need a lane, you're going to have to have some balls to walk up to a lane and just ask to hop in with them, other than that we are not going to offer our lane to you!  So standing and looking awkward on the pool deck is pretty much what is going to happen. Yes, it might involve stopping us while in the middle of a set and that's annoying but it's better than the alternative. 

So on top of having anxiety while at the gym on Wednesday we, and by we I am referring to myself and the other swimmer in my lane, had a guy just jump in from the deep end and start swimming.


3. Don't just jump in a lane without letting swimmers know.
I noticed this guy that jumped in while I was in the middle of a set.   Now I don't mind if people get in and wait on the wall so that I am aware you are in my lane along with the other swimmer.  That way when one of us stops we establish that we are going to circle swim and be on our merry way. And this only saves us some trouble of a head on collision.

So because this guy decided to jump in the lane and just start swimming with two people splitting a lane it ruffled my wet feathers.  It's a little dangerous there buddy and I would appreciate not having a head on collision because you don't know swim lane etiquette. If he didn't know then, he definitely knows now.  I laid, well I tried to be nice but the anxiety didn't help, into him once I got back to the wall.  I don't remember if I was in the middle of a set or interval.   I've been in a head on pool collision and they don't feel good!  He just stumbled through the fact that he thought there was room in the lane since there were only two of us.  Yes, you are correct but that's not how you get in a lane with other swimmers.

 4.  Let the faster/stronger swimmer go first.
Now I say faster and stronger because we don't always fly through to pool with a time to keep.  One of my sets that day was

4x100m (continuous 100m swim)
25 b/e 3
25 b/e 5
25 b/e 7
25 b/e 5
*b/e - breathe every

So during that set I wasn't exactly flying through the pool.  I was just trying to relax as much as I could while holding my breath until a certain point and then gasping for air and back my head went into the water.  Let me tell you that set is a hard one.  The first two not so bad but it started to get hard on set 3 going from 7 to 5.  But letting the faster/stronger swimmer go first just lets them not slow down or stop because they ran into you and someone else is swimming in the middle of the pool.

5. Stay on your side of the lane when circle swimming.
So when you circle swim it's almost like you're driving down the road.  You always stay on the right side.  Swimming down the middle of the lane can also cause another collision.  Other than that the middle is used for passing.  Yes, we can fit through two swimmers swimming in the opposite direction without any problems.  Remember we've been navigating a pool for years.  I actually got kicked in the arm when trying to pass one of them.

 So after my swim on Wednesday, again keeping to myself, bigger anxiety after I got out.  I honestly just wanted to get out of there.  My workout was done and I sped through it. I felt good!

I did apologize to him after I got out of the pool because I don't want to sounds like a mean bitchy person to anyone.  That's never how I want to be perceived!



My Wed swim workout



150 swim

75 kick             3x        
75 drill                
                                                             900
8x100 @ 1:45
75 back kick w/ fins
25 under H20
*this is by far my favorite set but boy does it take your breath away
                                                             1700

4x100 breath control (rest :20-:30sec)
25m b/e 3
25m b/e 5
25m b/e 7
25m b/e 5
(b/e - breath every)
*this one started to suck from lap 3-4 on set 3 & 4 because I typically breath right after coming off the wall and you can't do that during this set.

                                                              2100
4x50 (RI :30)
25m swim
10 press outs
25m swim
                                                               2300
2x250 pull (buoy and paddles)
100m @ 2:00 b/e 3
75m @ 1:30 b/e 5
50 @ 1:00 b/e 7
25m @ :30 1 breath or less
                                                                2800
100 swim
100 cool down
                                                                3000


My heart
After working out in the mornings I head to work;  I'm a substitute teacher and I work mostly with the SPED (special education) kids at a middle school on post.  If you read my blog from September 2015 I wrote how I felt God was calling me to work with kids.  I wasn't sure in what way that was but it's what I felt like he was doing.  And this could be it.  After working with SPED kids at school I go home with a heart more filled with joy and the warmth of love than anything I think I have ever felt.  When you finally make a connection with the kid you're working with it's an amazing feeling.  And I'm telling ya'll because I don't have anyone to share that with.  I want someone to see how excited I get about working with these kids. 
Ethan and his artwork

I worked with a new kid named Ethan Wednesday and I was nervous because I've never worked with him so I didn't know what his regular routine was or how much he would need my help.  I got some advice about him from one of the other girls who works as a sub and mostly an aid and has worked with Ethan before  .I was warned not to let Ethan hug me because sometimes he will headbutt you, that would be fun.  Ethan uses an ipad mostly to communicate but can tell you some things. He has music, art, and PE.  He does the same warm up in music and PE, works through some songs on the keyboard/piano and also the just does what he pleases in PE.  I think art is my favorite because I have to interact with him more.   So the art teacher gave us construction paper and we made a vase attached to another piece of construction paper and added some flowers to it.  I helped make the vase and he glued it together.  I also outlined the stems and flowers for him and helped him cut them out.  From there we clued it all down to the big construction paper and letting him pick from the rainbow of colors he had.  I was standing most of the period, until about the end, but somewhere in the middle of me standing and helping Ethan lend over and gave me a hug.  I'm not sure anything could top what this kids do and how much they show appreciation for the most simple things! 
Unfortunately for Ethan my head just wasn't where it needed to be most of the day, until we got into art.  I mean my phone was on vibrate and in my purse the entire day just because I didn't want to be contacted by anyone and knew I wasn't going to hear from the one person I wanted to hear from so why put myself through constantly looking at my phone.  My head has been somewhere else every since Sunday and it sucks because I couldn't give Ethan everything I had, but it's these kids that keep me distracted from the other things that are going on in my life. 

So in all of the craziness of Wednesday I learned that I do not handle break ups well no matter how short or long they are. And this doesn't help with my biggest fear....ending up alone and no one loving me.  And even when the reasoning has nothing do to with me.  But just like anything, rejection sucks and I judge myself extremely hard because of it.  Am I worth it, what did I do wrong, why am I not good enough, not worth the risk? Even our cook at church noticed that the smile was missing from my face.  And as I go back and forth about deleting what I just wrote it is through my writing that I am able to say things this personal.  Because me actually using verbal communication just ends up with me in tears which is something I hate.  I HATE crying.  I see it as a personal weakness and I don't like feeling week.  Letting someone know my personal stories, good and bad, are about as weak as I want to be with someone, but never the tears.  I can't handle those.  I'm not even sure how to handle them when someone else cries.  And don't think I don't like for other people to cry and see them as weak because I don't view them that way, just myself.  It's my own personal judgment of myself. So yes tears out of frustration and not understanding, unfortunately.  But we learn something from every set of tears and grow from that.  And I don't want this to seem like a pity party because it's not.  But that's the great part about exercise, it brightens your mood.  So I hit the track this afternoon for some sprints that my slacking workout partner had mentioned last week that I felt horrible about bailing on because I was super tired, so I went home to take a nap instead.  And all of a sudden I feel better and on top of the world, ready to conquer it.
So first thing is first, taking myself on a date on Monday for wings and Batman v Superman!

Track work

400m warm up

2x400m sprint
~2min rest btw each

2x600m sprint
200m rest (walked to starting spot)

2x400m spring
~2min rest btw each
*I don't have a way currently to keep track of my sprint times.



 

~God Bless
"Training strength and endurance mentally, physically, and spiritually."

March 21, 2016

16.4 Feels + DC Trip

The 16.4 Feels
I watched the announcement late again this past Thursday for 16.4.  I'm not sure what I had going on that I didn't watch it at the time it was announced, o yeah I went to see a local play called, "Downrange, Tales from the Homefront."  It was amazing by the way and really hits home living in a military town.  Unfortunately, I had to leave early because I still had some packing to do before heading out on the weekend trip to DC.
So I watched the announcement as I packed.  The announcement took place in Colorado Springs, Colorado at an Air Force Base.  It was really neat that they included the military in this one and they had 3 Airmen compete alongside the two games athletes as well.  The announcement was made of the workout..


13min AMRAP
55 dL 225/155
55 wall balls 20/14#
55cal row
55 hspu (hand stand push ups)

I was actually excited about this workout, the only one so far of this past open.  I felt good about the dL at 155# because my max is 235#, so they should have be a piece of cake.  The wall balls I was feeling okay about and just okay because they are my least favorite movement but I was feeling thankful for the rowing and hspu.  When I heard the rowing and HSPU were back to back I was actually pretty excited and thankful for The Outlaw Way for programming and row/hspu workout earlier in the week so I was really feeling good about that.  My confidence was up for this workout.  I was determined to make it through hspu and get back to the dL.  I was also excited that I was going to be doing the workout in DC.
I went to my regular gym while up in DC, CrossFit South Arlington.  I emailed them ahead of time to let them know that I would be in town and needed to do the open workout.  They have always been very welcoming about me dropping in, so if you're ever in DC hit them up.  Turns out that I misread the email of when they were holding their open workout.  I read the 19th, the email said the 20th which I reread after getting there and they coach told me they did it on Sunday's.  Turns out because of that my workout partner decided he would be my judge and not workout with  me, which when it comes to my motivation, I need someone to chase.  Having someone to chase during a workout makes me want it that much more and push myself that much harder.  So I was flying solo on this one, mental game already building a crack
 

Photo of me rowing that my slacking gym partner
 took
 My first mistake was knocking out 20 dL all at once, but I was impressed that I did 20 straight through.  I mean that's almost the first set of "Dianne!"  After that set of 20 my body was too fatigued to do anything above 5reps.  I checked the clock after finished dL and it was 3:33 in, next was wall balls.  I did my first set and did 13 and from there is was just more frustration building as I sometimes lost the ball in my hands, it didn't hit the target which a 9' target should be easy for me since I normally practice at the 10' target.  My slacking workout partner was encouraging me getting me back on my reps and giving me a goal of reps to hit but after getting frustrated I just got more annoyed.  Then came the rower, where I was hoping to make up a little time.  He, slacking workout partner, had giving me some tips on rowing for calories v. meters before I got started out in the lobby but it never has made sense to me to try and change something right before a person tries to go as hard as they can in a workout.  Those tips just seem to fly out the window, but now that the workout is over it's something that I will try and work on.  I started out great on the row and was feeling good, then the pain set in and I got more into my head.  A lot of workouts are 10x more mental than the actual physical task of it.  I finished at 50cal when my 13min ran out. 
I'm not going to lie, I'm still upset about my performance because I KNOW!! I can do better than that.  I could have gotten to hspu.  I see pictures of people from my old gym getting to hspu and I get a little upset because I know I could have been right there with them kicking ass.  I want to redo this workout because I know I'm better than my performance but it would be me doing it all over again by myself.  So I think I'm going to chalk this workout up to another one and done and do it again another time to prove to myself that yes I can get to where I wanted to in the workout, back to dL or at least close to them.




DC
So this weekend started the Cherry Blossom Festival, although there wasn't much going on that weekend with the Cherry Blossom festival to see them already bloomed on the trees was very pretty.  But what the heck happened to the weather!?  It went from 80 degree weather to 40-50s and raining!  Like I wrote previously, I did the workout on Saturday morning and then we headed back to the hotel and showered and found lunch.  Now my slacking workout partner is a huge fan of wings so we ended up at Fuel Pizza for lunch.  They have a couple of them in Charlotte, but no where I live so we went there, just right across the street.  Now I wasn't happy it was a chain restaurant but it was close and we hadn't eaten since about 730/8am and needed food.  Next time, I'm eating at all local restaurants.  From lunch we headed toward the Holocaust Memorial Museum.  Now I've been there before, but he never had.  My first experience was very short because after doing to the top floor you have to read a lot of information.  It's very overwhelming to take it.  Four floor worth of information to learn about the Holocaust and just a lot mentally and emotionally to take it.  You wonder how someone could be so cruel to people who were different from him.  And you realize how bad the extent to which Hilter's genocide was.  It included more people than you could have imagined than just Jews, which is what is mostly focused on.  It included gypsies, professors, scholars, politicians, handicapped, basically anyone who was consider inferior to Hilter's standards or a superior race.  If you ever get a chance to visit the museum, 1) get your tickets in advance, that place sells out fast and 2) go through it in a couple trips.  Not only are those 4 floors a lot to take in but there is more to the museum than just that part of it.
After hitting the museum we headed back to the hotel and relaxed for a little bit and his friend was nice enough to make reservations at a Jazz restaurant called JoJo's Restaurant and Bar.  I actually got dressed up in a dress and heels ya'll!  It's nice to get to dress up for something and being taken on a dressed up date. It's a two story restaurant in townhome type house, very narrow like I picture out in LA.  I kind of wanted to sit downstairs to be close to the band but then again I didn't want to have to yell to have a conversation.  So we sat upstairs.  Reservations were originally made for us to have a window seat and I love having a window seat at a restaurant.  But somehow between him and his friend changing the reservations from 5 people to 2 people it got cancelled.  So we sat a cute booth right at the top of the stairs.  We order and appetizer of calamari that came with a creole sauce for dipping.  The calamri was lightly fried, I'm so used to it coming out dark but it was very good.  He ordered the herb salmon and I ordered the bourbon salmon and both came out really good.  The risotto wasn't as creamy as I would have liked for it to be and I also had brocollini.  His came with sautéed spinach and mashed potatoes.  And we even had room for dessert, apple tart with gelato.  I've personally never had gelato and you can tell the taste is lighting and it's texture is smoother than ice cream.  It had it's fair share of cinnamon, and I felt as if the taste was missing something but overall the meal was good, and I would go back to experience it again. 
After dinner we headed back to the hotel and had a couple drinks at the hotel bar.  He found a new favorite drink, Jameson and gingerbeer, and I had one as well, a Tom Collins and the second was just vodka and lemonade.  Both tasted very similar and it didn't have any trouble drinking them down.  Now when I say this I mean that I don't like tasting my alcohol in my drinks.  A little hint of a taste of alcohol is okay, but if it's strong I can't drink it.  I mean I can't even drink wine because I can only taste the alcohol and not the flavors in it.  This was my first official drink of the year.  Some of you might know I'm not big on drinking, and it's not because I'm against drinking I've just never gotten into it and it doesn't help that I can usually taste the alcohol.  It was a fun weekend but it was done with a lot on my mind and a bit of a heavy heart. 

(As I type this with tears rolling down my face). Just know that it hurts thinking that someone doesn't think your worth the risk of taking a chance on even with all the things that they have going on in their life.  So no I'm not crying over being broken up with but by constantly not feeling like I'm worth anything to the guys I meant.  And it's just not from this past one.  And the reason why he ended it is not a reason at all, but I feel more of an excuse from past experiences and his future.  I am worth that risk of starting a relationship with when you know you have a lot of training coming up and just having to move in general.  I'm not your past so don't compare what we might have to what has happened to you with other people.  With dating someone in the military they will always have my support with what they decide to do with their life and where they decide to go or end up going.  Because let's face it they don't really get to choose all that often where they end up living and not living.  I know with getting into that relationship it will come with a lot of absences, long distance, and going with that person wherever they may have to move to.  I would never ask someone to make sacrifices in their career or personal life for me and vice versa.  There is a passion there and that's not something I would ever want to hold someone back from.  I'm ready and mentally prepared to have to make that sacrifice.  That comes with this territory and one day someone will realize that I'm worth that.  Granted the relationship was short but no matter what it still hurts when someone treats you really well and then out of the blue things are completely different.  It doesn't make sense to me and it probably never will.  I guess I'm just hoping one day he'll realize what he decided to give up on so quickly.  I hate that I have to deal with the fears of someones past and the fears of their future but that's the way it goes I guess.

Sorry I don't have any pictures for you from DC!



~God Bless
"Training strength and endurance mentally, physically, and spiritually."

16.3 + My 10 Year High School Reunion (Yikes)!

16.3
We are now halfway through the open with only 2 more workouts to go and at this point of me writing this blog, only 1 more after last nights announcement of 16.4.  I'm not going to lie, trying to get this workout completed was a pain in the butt.  I was suppose to do the workout Saturday morning but didn't get to, but will say that I am disappointed in part of the CrossFit community here and proud of it because of all the support I received the day of and after Saturday.  So this particular workout was in my wheel house, in my skill
strengths.  We had a typical movement, snatches, and a semi new movement, muscle ups.  Usually we have ring muscle up and you have to earn your right to perform them; in other words it was usually to awhile to get to them or you had to be really good.  Last year Castro through them in the workout in the beginning which made me so happy, I actually got to complete them last year.  This year, instead of ring muscle ups Dave changed the game and gave us bar muscle ups.  I grew up in gymnastics, so hanging from a bar comes natural to me, and it was only 7min long.  Finally something times a little shorter.
I did the workout at Guild on Sunday, my normal rest day and Dawn was awesome to come take pictures of me!  Can't express how much that meant.  So 16.3 is...

7min AMRAP
10 snatches 75/55
3 bar muscle ups

My goal: Get to 7 Rounds
I did my first 2 round unbroken, but I knew I would get worn out on the snatches before bar muscle ups.  I broke my 3rd set into 5-5 and I can't remember if it was this round or my 4th that I miss my 1st bar muscle up.  I got a little irritated with the snatches though because one time my hand almost slipped off the bar as I was coming back down from the top to start another snatch, luckily it was at my hip pocket so I was able to catch it and adjust.  Another time I popped the bar too far out in front of me, which is a shock because NEVER do that, and lost my grip on the bar.  But missing my bar muscle up was shocking and frustrating to me.  and my 5th round which was my last full round I did get 2 unbroken muscle ups and then dangled my body overtop of the bar like any gymnast would to take a break or when I was in gymnastics readjust our grips.  As I let my arms and legs just fall loosely overtop of my head I shook out my arms for what felt like too long and did my last rep for Round 5.  Back to the barbell I went to try and get all 10 snatch in in the :45sec I had left of this 7min workout.   My breath was heavy and my arms started to feel like weights were attached to them making the bar feel heavier than I knew it was, but the worst part was how hard I was breathing.  I completed 9 of the 10 snatches that I needed for my start in Round 6.  I felt like I should have pushed harder and could a done better and possibly gotten into my 7th round.

My score: 74 reps
I really wanted to make it to Round 7 and it could have been possible.  Only thing I'm hating this year so far is not being able to redo any of the workouts.  So far I would have wanted to redo 16.2 and 16.3, but 16.2 wasn't going to happen since my quad was giving me issues, but it's better now

Current Standings
Women Worldwide

Women Mid Atlantic



10 Year Reunion (YIKES!)
So I found out about out a month to a month and a half ago that is is 2016, yes I've known this since New Years Day but it didn't connect with me that I have been out of high school now for 10 years.  Just another reminder of how old I have gotten and how old we all get!  Other than that quick reminder of my age, immediate anxiety.
Two reasons for my anxiety... 1) I did NOT enjoy high school except for swimming and my college prep courses; a girl absolutely hate me for reasons I never knew, and 2) I was embarrassed about where my life had been and the thought of sharing that with other people I knew.  I didn't fit in in high school.  I hung out with the country kids aka the rednecks, but also had a best friend that our nicknames were "slut" and "hoe."  Completely appropriate right?  Although most of my eating disorders really occurred in college I realize now that they probably started in high school.
I got lucky in high school to get involved in sports, which has been in my blood since I was 4 years old (thank Mom), and swam for 3 years (freshman to junior year).  This was the first time I had heard about year-round swimming and was completely amazed at how fast they actually swam.  A 500yd swim in under 8min was crazy to me, especially since I struggled to make it in 10+ minutes.  And my senior year I was apart of a college experience program where I only went to school for half the day and went to a college course later that afternoon/evening.  I took sign language for my course and want to start taking it again someday.
I remember a girl names Jessica who was, of course, one of the popular girls at school which I don't remember why but she absolutely hated me!  Having changed since being that age I don't understand how people have those feelings towards other people.  when they feel like that towards me my heart just hurts for them. 
I couldn't shake the burden of having to go to this, only that I didn't even really have to go.  For some reason I felt as if this was an obligation that I had to go.  I didn't want to see people from high school that I had become since then acquintances with on facebook who had successful careers and had gotten married.  I was embarrassed by where I am at in my life.  My mom tried to calm me down by telling me it wasn't a requirement to attend and that she didn't go to hers either, but the anxiety didn't go away.  Then in another conversation, he asked me if I was happy, happy in my life and in my career.  And my answer is absolutely!  I spend my days as a substitute teacher, mostly working with SPED (special education) kids at a middle school on post.  I don't think I've ever had a job that I go home happy every day, a heart filled with so much joy and warm with love.  It's almost an overwhelming feeling.  I wish everyone could have that feeling after finishing a day at work and look forward to going to work. When you make a connection with these kids it's one of the most amazing feelings.  And it's the simplest things; a kid giving you one of their starburst or them saying hello in the hallway.  I have nothing to be embarrassed by, I don't have to tell anyone my past, only where I am at currently.  My wish for everyone is that they find this happiness in their life as well.  So just as I was asked, I ask you; Are you happy?
But my reunion hasn't been officially put together yet, just thought about so I have awhile before I start to consider about going or not.


~God Bless
"Training strength and endurance mentally, physically, and spiritually."



March 14, 2016

Open 16.2 + "Reese's" ( & Jelly) Cups

Open 16.2
Well I was hoping for one of the open workouts to be on the side of strength and that's what I got, but not in the way I wanted it.  I was hoping for a 1RM (one rep max) snatch or OHS (overhead squat), if we're being perfectly honest.  I completely missed the live announcement Thursday night so I just watched the archived version an hour later.  I do think it's nice that they are doing something different this year for the open announcements.  16.1 had your everyday athlete mixed with games athletes and 16.2 was done in a home garage gym in Chandler, NC.  More and more people have home garage gyms now.

Open 16.2

25 toes to bar                             25 toes to bar                        25 toes to bar
50 DUs                                      50 DUs                                 50 DUs
15 squat cleans 135/85              13 squat cleans 185/115       11 squat cleans 225/145
4min                                          8min                                      12min

25 toes to bar
50 DUs
9 squat cleans
16min

*You had to complete each round within the 4min time cap but if you finished a round early then you could go ahead and start the next round

My 16.2 didn't go as well as I had hoped.  My goal was to get into Round 3 and just stare at the barbell.  I might have tried to lift 145# but my max C&J is 140# and that's by power cleans so 145# if I would have been able to pull it off would have been difficult.  I decided to test the workout that Friday morning and I didn't even finish the first round; I had two more cleans to go.  So maybe I wasn't going to get as far as I thought I would.  and then I realized later that day that I had tested the workout, Round 1, with 10lb more than what I needed.  Friday morning testing it didn't leave me very optimistic for that night. 

My quad also had started to bother me, and I couldn't really pinpoint from what.  It could have been a combination of the 8x400m sprints (track) I was suckered into Wednesday after noon and my workout on Thursday morning of 15cal row (sprint) + 10 thrusters.    There was a little bit of pain during the first round at 85lbs but nothing too terrible that I couldn't push through.  After a couple squat cleans into Round 2 at 115# on Friday night, I had to realize that even though I was going to keep trying until my time ran out getting any more reps and standing up out of those cleans just wasn't going to happen.  It felt as if part of my quad was going to pull apart, O and I started to have to go pee during my second round of double unders (DUs).  1) You don't take pee breaks in the middle of an open workout, and 2) I refuse to pee in my shorts!  So I finished 16.2 with 169 reps.

I worked out on Saturday and did mostly power versions of the Olympic lifts and then a partner workout, tons of upper body and some core.
Partner WOD
10 rope climbs
75 kb swings 24/32kg
50 hspu
25 ghd sit ups (each)
*all other movements were broken up
 I took my usual rest day of Sunday and depending on how my leg felt on Monday was going to attempt it again and unfortunately it was a no go.  so one semi-stellar performance for me during the open.
16.3 live Open workout is announced Thursday night....

            "Reese's" Cups & "PB"&J CupsIce cream, reese's pieces, kit kat, twix, cookies, and donuts...is your mouth watering yet?  What do all these things have in common except the fact that most of them are my favorite sweets? O just the sugar and that's probably one of my weaknesses is sweets.  Check some of the labels of other foods and beverages you eat and drink, that aren't considered sweets, for their sugar content.  But that's besides the point.  I've been wanting for several weeks now to make Almond Butter Cups and "PB" &J cups.  If you haven't noticed yet, every time I want to fix some kind of food it usually takes me a couple weeks to do it.  So I finally got around to making these last Friday night since my plans got cancelled. 
I prefer to melt my chocolate, in a bowl over hot water.
Servings: 8-10 Ingredients (that made this specific batch):1c Enjoy Life Chocolate Chips1c almond butter1tsp honey1tbsp butter or coconut oil (the recipe I followed used coconut oil but I don't use coconut) Directions:1. First you want to melt the chocolate.  You can melt it in the microwave but I prefer to melt mine overtop of the stove in a glass bowl on top of a pot of hot water, but not boiling.2.  Combine 1c almond butter, 1tsp honey and 1tbsp butter.  It said to blend these ingredients together but I stuck them in a measuring cup and melted the almond butter and butter in the microwave for 1min and then poured them into a bowl and then added the honey and stirred them together.  (I can't stand how thick almond butter is, I prefer my stuff creamy so I melted it down to soften it).  It should come out nice and creamy after you put it in the microwave.3. Once the chocolate is done melting I used a large spoon and put 1 spoonful into each muffin slot (if there's a name for it I can't think of it right now).4.  After spooning the melted chocolate into the muffin tins (it came back to me), take a small spoonful of the almond butter mixture and place on top of the chocolate.  5. I had extra chocolate left over and really wanted to make them look like Reese's Cups so I tried to put chocolate back on top.  I also instead of trying to put chocolate on top of all of them I put Smuckers Sugar Free Grape Jelly on top.  I split it 5 "Reese's Cup and 5 "PB"&J. 6. Place the muffin tin in the freezer for 30-45min.  Remove from freezer and popped the cups out with a knife.
 
Now I've only tried a bite of one of them, but they didn't turn out exactly like I was hoping they would.  They taste was fine, it's just I was hoping the presentation of them, so to speak would be different when I finshed them.  I really wanted the regular cups to look like Reese's Cups.  And the PB&J cups also with the chocolate added back on top.  So here are some things I would do differently the next time I make them...
1.  Instead of 1c of chocolate chips I would use 2 and melt them separately, that way I would definitely have enough to put on top.

2. After putting the almond butter on top of the chocolate I would place them as the recipe calls for and then place the second layer of chocolate and jelly on top.  This past time the chocolate I placed back on top of the almond butter started to melt down into it and that's not what I was looking for.  
Some of the cups with almond butter on top and others not yet filled.

3. Almost the same for the pb&j cups except placing a layer of jelly and then a layer of chocolate, or maybe even leaving the top layer of chocolate off. 
4.  They also turned out bigger than I had expected them to, so maybe a mini muffin pan for the next batch.
I definitely will try and make these again in the future with the changes I named.  These would be food for a Sunday night treat, maybe even with a glass of milk, if you're like me and have a cheat day on Sundays.
 
Happy Baking!


Finished product with a little extra chocolate on top.  What I was hoping would cover
the whole thing.


~God Bless
"Training strength and endurance mentally, physically, and spiritually."